Tuesday, October 13, 2009
to begin i m very very moody these few days due to aimlessness and emotions...
as such i would like to go out on sat to shop...
however, mei xiang dao it was disastrous... i end up being alone at bugis junction for 3h 2000-2315 to be exact... the worse was me having to eat dinner by myself -.-
really thank jh for talking to me for 1 full hour on the phone and s.teh for shopping with me... wat ruin the day was very easy. i ask another friend out also because teh got to go for bbq at 2000 like that... he said ok soo ok quite happy at least will not be alone. but i was wrong. firstly when i wanted to go find him and the girls. i called him. the first thing i ask is where r u all he said shaw tower i say i will go find them and he say there no seats. in a way that what i feel is dun really want me to go join them.(over exaggeration). i replied ok lor can lor i alone at bugis lor. and he replied ok -.- can u believe it. first time ever i hear such a response. people will always say nvm u come first later we find seats... the fact that he said this is very simple it would be better if i m not there.
i after that call jh and we talk while i walk to shaw tower.
i was complaining tto her abt the sch stuff all this and that...
when i reach the place where they were eating, the first thing i saw is many tables and chairs empty. and then he was like very happy eating and chatting with the girls. he and gy wave to me and i gave a smile and walk away. the first thing i said to jh on the phone when i see that is ta ma de i m freaking piss that ruin the whole mood..... i told her everything abt wat happen and she said trust her yr friend will call u bak after he enjoy finish or when they finish eating and going bak home. guess what this is sooo true. i stomp out of shaw tower and go bak to bugis junction and sit down there wth rite how could i not be angry someone plz tell me.......
eventually he and gy came over find me i ask them to go and leave me alone i m sitting there till 11 and they go... how piss i was... thankfully when i called teh he say he going bak at abt 1015 soo i waited for him at bugis junction till abt 11.
Gy called me at abt 1015 and explained that not they dun wan to call me it is that the place is full and ppl left.. and i said i dun give a dam if the ppl left or what the fact that u didnt called and i found that fact out myself its the part that piss me off...
He sms me to say sry also and i accepted.
one thing is i m dam dissapointed... very very dissapointed... to hear from teh and jh why yr friend like that isnt he yr very good friend in school? its really very dissapointing... do i really trust the right person?
Nvm monday it was bad i still not over it... soo whole day i try to keep minimal contact as much as possible...
today is the day that blew my cool down period...
whenever i m like that i nid to have at least a 2 day cool down period...
for goodness sake... chem lecture over i straight away go out cos i nid to cool down... and plz understand me... u claim that u r sensitive and that u can take all my negativity... why i juz cant see it.. once i walk out. i have already felt that u say what the fcuk is his problem(dunnoe whether exact words but somehow along this line). ok in the canteen i find zy and mad to go eat they ask me what rong i gave them an over view of what happen on sat. and after that when going to bio lecture u come and say this to me in my face. why leh because of one incident like that u like tat dao me? this is what blew up my cool down period-.- and further increase my dissapointment. u should understand why i m like that and ought to give me time to cool down yet u like thar... or iszzit u think u r not in the wrong on sat? or maybe sat i m the one in the wrong. all everything is i wrong. shouldnt have called u out... wth... i m piss off that all i can say...
dissapointed dissapointed dissapointed.
flooded with emotion and thoughts been attack with thoughts lowly of myself, low self-esteems to the extent that i think my presence means nth in the sch. i m juz nothing... how depressing
dissapointed.
extra cooldown time....
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